Wanting to thank my Grandma and Mother in law for teaching me how to cook a fantastic Thanksgiving meal we had 4 families with us and they loved everything I made everything except the Turkey and they loved it all I have very few leftovers thank goodness lol Thank You Grandma G, Grandma O, and Pam.
First Happy Thanksgiving, I love Thanksgiving it is a holiday that reminds us to be thankful but we shouldn't just be thankful during this holiday we need to be thankful all year round, everyday, every moment. Things I am thankful for all the time are
1. God he loves me more than anyone else and I love him, he is my very first love
2. My husband, he works his booty off, he is a GREAT daddy, he is my best friend and the greatest man alive
3. My children, don't worry there are days I go loco, kookoo, but they are the light of my life and I cannot imagine life without any of them
4. My mom and dad
5. My brother, sister, niece's, and nephew I love them all and miss them
6. All my other family
7. All of my friends, I have got the greatest friends on the planet
8. My church family they are the greatest most wonderful people I know
9. My grandparents
10. This wonderful life of mine I am living that I wouldn't trade for anything I thank God everyday for one more breath to breathe and one more day to live
Happy Thanksgiving what are you thankful for?
Last night at youth we had a quick lesson about being thankful. It was good. With that one thankful holiday coming up and all everywhere I look (blogs, Facebook, emails, etc) people are writing what they are thankful for, and last night we all had to say something we are thankful for most people said my family, one said God's presence, one the church proud of who said that one:-), and a couple other different ones. Well it got down to be my turn I was trying to hide but thanks to Sis LEE lol she won't like that, love you, got pointed out and ended being last better than first. I couldn't think of any one thing I hate that I said jokingly I am thankful for being me which I am thankful for that I am ME no matter who I am with or around but then serious thankful I said I am thankful for my heritage and my roots. I don't know about most people but I am proud of where I came from, I can say I am not ashamed of any of it. I may not like all of it but it is what makes me, me. I as well as my husband have an incredible heritage, my husband's is a little more impressive. So here I my life story and a little heritage :-) On February 2nd 1985 my mommy had me ( I was born out of wedlock although I would not know this for many years later) I was born in Coos Bay, OR my mom had been pretty much raised in church, my daddy was there for her the whole time even though he didn't have to be he chose to be ( he wasn't my biological but chose me:-) and he was raised in church and they both have a Christian heritage 8 months after I was born my parents got married on 10/5/1985 in Roseburg church called Christian Life Center the Pastor who married them was Pastor Knight this is the church I would grow up in. When I was 21 months old my mom had a baby boy my brother born on 11/06/1986 Joshua David Levi, we were very close to the Knight's sometimes I still miss some of the memories. When I was 46 months on 12/29/1988 my sister Emilee Joi was born, around the time I was 4/5 the Knight's would leave Roseburg and go back to Stockton :-( shortly after moving back down there Pastor Knight would die in a plane Crash. Pastor Knight passed the church to one of the Greatest man and family I know and I miss them all the time to this day Pastor Don Richardson, he was my Pastor for 8 years roughly maybe more, when they were leaving I was upset I bawled, I was 13 when they left, Sis Richardson was my school teacher from kindergarten, she could do no wrong, they took me to my first Youth Convention and many other Firsts, I am very grateful God placed this family in my life and I miss them still after 13 years :-). Ok back tracking when I was I think 10-11 I found out the story of how I came to be I found out I had another side of family. My mom told me because my Grandpa was very sick and they didn't know how long he would be alive, my grandpa was a minister he was a wonderful man, I loved listening to him talk. From the time I found out I was over there a lot, they lived 2 hrs max away so every chance I got I was there. I got close to my grandmother and love this woman dearly. Ok after Richardson's left at age 13 a man by the name of
Pastor Carl Brown was my pastor, this was an era of trial for him I am sure , and the church :-) at this time my parents started struggling in church, they ended up not going to church while us kids kept going, we would walk to church, my mom would drop us off, or my grandparents would pick us up, this is a time in my life I would not trade for anything this is what made me. At the age of 16 I went and stayed with my grandparents for 5 months on a horse ranch this was another great time of my life. After that I moved to Coos Bay to live with my aunt and finish school my grandmother also lived here. If I had a rebellious time it was my 16th summer :-). I started going back to church with my grandmother after 5 months of being isolated from anything. This is where I would meet the loves of my life God and my husband Jeremy. I met Jeremy and less than a month after meeting we started courting, this was an interesting time and I loved it all, we had trials before we got married but a month after we started courting we knew we were gonna get married. I knew this was the man I was going to marry. So 4 months after our first "date" we were engaged, we talked all the time and about everything, he was and is my BEST FRIEND. 5 months after getting engaged we got married on 10/12/2002 best day :-) oh I was 17 :-/ lol. I got done with school early :-) 9 months after we were married I found out I was pregnant yikes, six months later I had a 3 month early baby boy weighing 1 lb 12 oz and 14 inches long, he was my miracle and still is, his name is Jacob Michael and he lives up to his name, he was in the hospital for a little over 2 months. I had him a week before my 19th birthday. When he was 6 months old we moved to Portland metro area and attended Pastor Gary Gleason church OCUPC 3 years after moving there we had another son Judah Milo born on 8/14/2007 he was 5 weeks early weighing 4 lbs 8 oz he was in the hospital for a week 3 days longer than I so not to bad, a year later I found out I was pregnant again I balked and cried I didn't want another baby yet on 05/15/2009 Kaleigh Louise was born she is a MESS, right after her 1st birthday we moved to Washington our Pastor Tim King, I am excited and thankful to be here extending my roots and heritage to my children.
So around the holidays my family wants Pumpkin Rolls I have already made 3 and making more this week. I normally don't like pumpkin anything but pumpkin roll is something I do enjoy, I don't like it around my waist :-) but hey it's the holidays right it only comes around once a year and then you spend the rest of the year trying to get it off :-)
Have you ever been so frustrated you wanted to scream, cry, and throw a fit like when you were 2 years old. I DO, LOL. My life this last year and half has been very trying mostly emotionally but still frustrating. There has been even more ups than downs but its like my Pastor says it will take a 100 rights to correct 1 wrong, or something to that effect :). There are days where you feel like you are all alone and then there are days you feel like you have world. There are days where you can't tell anyone what, how, why you are feeling something and days you can tell anyone everything. There are days you don't know how to express what you are feeling and then there are days you are an open book. There are days when it feels like the world is falling apart around you and then there are days when it feels like everything is right in the world. There are days when you wish you could be a child again innocent, pure and then there are days where you wouldn't trade where you are now for anything. There are days you look back and wonder what you could have done different with a situation or something and then there are days you feel you did everything right. Everyday there are emotions, struggles, and things your unsure of but there is one thing I am sure of I know I am in the greatest place on earth, and I have been a lot of places well in US and Canada :), I have the greatest Pastor and family, I have the greatest most wonderful church family who is my family, I have some of the greatest friends I have ever had, and that no matter what is going on with me emotionally I have my HUSBAND and my 3 MONKEYS or CHILDREN depending on the day :), and that is MY FAMILY my husband and my children matter more to me than anything else in this world. I want to please them after God, I want to be strong for them, so it doesn't matter where I am emotionally on a day with GOD and MY FAMILY I know I will be OK. Don't take this as a negative for it is not meant to be I am just putting in words what I know we all go through, but not all of us have help for or Emotional Whirlwind storms I do I have GOD who I put all my trust and emotions in and he gives me the strength, and I have MY FAMILY who loves me, cares for me, and makes me happy when no one else can.
I LOVE THIS SONG
it doesn't matter what anyone else is going to do, its what am gonna do. Am I going to be the Radical change I wanna see, I can't expect someone else to do it for me, I need to stand and not wait but do it myself, be it myself. I WILL BE THE RADICAL CHANGE WILL YOU.
There is a song called Anoint Me Lord, I love the words of this song all of them but especially the chorus, here is the chorus.
Anoint me Lord this day
As I go along my way
Let my life send forth a glow
Let the oil around me flow
Anoint me Lord
This day I pray
Amen
I think this needs to be included in our prayer everyday, we can tell people all day about God all day, his grace, his love, his mercy, his sacrifice, that he is coming back again soon, but if they don't see and feel God in us how can we expect them to hear our words believe them. I have always said ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. Don't get me wrong my words need to be Christ like but if my actions are not more than my words how can I expect my words to affect anyone. Well there I go getting side tracked.:) Outside my home and even in my home with my children because they are watching, but no matter where I am who I am with I want them to see GOD, his anointing, his love, his mercy, his compassion, his sincerity, his grace, every aspect of him I want them to see it in me. I want them to long for, desire, want what I have because what I have is the greatest gift of all. So Lord as I go along my way today let my life send forth a glow let the oil around me flow anoint me LORD I pray.
Here is the song
I love this song, I am so thankful for God's mercy. He doesn't have to give it to me or anyone but he chooses to and wants too. I don't know what I would do without God first in my life he has carried me through and been merciful throughout my life and the greatest life I live is for him, and I am trying to teach my children that.
He said that I could come into
His presence without fear
Into the holy place where
His mercy hovers near
I'm runnin' I'm runnin'
I'm runnin' to the mercy seat
Where Jesus is callin' he said
His grace would cover me
His blood will flow freely
It will provide the healin'
Come runnin' to the mercy seat
I'm runnin; to the mercy seat.
